I never realized how hard it was to find a job until I actually need one. No, I haven’t been fired..No, I haven’t been demoted. The hours at the company that I work for have been cut…drastically. To the point that I’m only making enough to pay my phone bill and maybe buy myself a meal. And then for the two weeks until my next paycheck, I have no money. I’ve drained my savings on stupid things and paying bills so I don’t have that kind of a backup. So, I’ve been on a mad hunt for a job, any job. It doesn’t even have to be a manager position..I’ve been applying for associate at stores and whatnot. NO ONE has called back. I got 1 call back and I’ve applied everywhere in these past two weeks that I’ve been home. I’m just hoping and praying that something comes to me soon because that’s the only way that I can get out of here, and I’m going to be 21 in less than 10 days… I cannot live with my parents anymore. I cannot share a bathroom with my 13 year old brother any more. I just can’t.

I finally whipped out my digital camera yesterday and snapped a few pictures, mainly because I was trying to take a picture of my hair. The only one I took was a cell phone picture while I was still on vacation. So, here’s that-

It’s actually a lot lighter than I was going for, but I told my cousin (in these exact words) “Put a buttload of blonde in it”. That’s what she did! I’m so grateful because it’s definitely a good change. Looking back at older pictures compared to these, the dark hair REALLY washed me out and gave me a very..lackluster look. She also re-cut all my layers, they were in desperate need, got all that dead end off of there and gave me some more volume. I don’t know if I talked about it, but I switched birth controls and the one I’m on now is making me lose a lot of hair. My hair has been looking really flat and lifeless, so those short layers and some teasing are really going to help me. Eyeshadow in those pictures is ALL MAC (Romp on the lid, Mulch and Carbon in the crease and outer crease..and NC15 Studio Fix Powder as a highlight Haha)

WHO WATCHED JERSEY SHORE 2 LAST NIGHT?!?!?!?! I was in heaven. Glad to have my Guidos and Guidettes back, haha. If you watch it, what did you think? What was your favorite part? Will you keep watching? & Most importantly, Will you help me throw Angelina off of a bridge?

I loved the entire episode but I will say that I laughed the most when Snookie was getting ready to go pick up JWOWW in that big Escalade and had to move the seat sooooo close to the steering wheel. I died.

So..Like I mentioned way up there.. I’M TURNING TWENTY ONE!! My birthday is Sunday, the 8th. Why do I have to be the one to have a 21st birthday on the day all the liquor stores are closed, really?! I’m going to dinner that night with my friends (Probably Chili’s..you all know how I feel about my Chili’s) and I can drink there which will rock. Then that weekend on Saturday my friends are taking me to a few bars and then I’m going to my sister’s house for a party she’s throwing because she felt bad she was going to miss going out with me. So I’m bringing myself to her. I should be thoroughly drunk that entire weekend, it’s going to be sweet.